Relay for Life

Friday night I did probably the best thing so far to help my heart to heal.  I participated in the Relay for Life and walked in honor of Angela.  I went with my good friend, Meredith.  The whole night was just amazing...emotional...memorable...special...uplifting...healing...I could go on and on, but I think you get the picture.  Meredith and I went together to talk about Angela and share our memories of her.  She was very close to their family - lilke another daughter to them - the girls' babysitter since the youngest was just a baby.  We cried, walked, shared, and best of all laughed!  They played a lot of 80's music as we were walking - I couldn't help but think of how much fun Angela and I would've had singing along.  This is definitely something that will be a part of my life from now on.  

I pray that through events like this that we can raise enough money to find a cure for this horrible disease so that other children, husbands, wives, and best friends don't have to go through this much pain.  Cancer touches us all in one way or another.  I don't know if I knew anyone with cancer when I was a young child, but my children know a dozen people who either have it or have died trying to fight it.  I would be lying if I said that didn't scare me.  It terrifies me!  That's why I think that events like this are so important - not just to remember those who have fought and won or have fought and lost but also to make us all aware of how fragile life really is.  Live each day to its fullest!

Live...Laugh...Love

Something Cool!

I read something in this book that I'm reading that I have never thought of before.  In Psalm 6:8-9, it says, "Go away, all you who do evil, for the Lord has heard my weeping.  The Lord has heard my plea; the Lord will answer my prayer."  In the Message, it says, "At last the Lord has heard my sobs..."  I'm a pretty simple person.  I accept things just the way they are and don't question much.  My faith is simple - I like it that way.  So, it shouldn't surprise me that I had never thought of this before - God hears our tears and they become our prayers!  Wow!  I just LOVE that!  I have shed many tears in the past two and a half months.  There were times where I felt badly for not praying more than I was, but to know that my tears were heard by God...He knows my heart, of course, so why wouldn't He know my tears?

Good day

Church was just really awesome today.  Scott and I visited a new church while the girls were at church with friends.  It was the first time in a long time the we both really enjoyed church together.  Worship was awesome - the people were so welcoming - the message was challenging.  It was such a gift from God.

Our God is such an incredible God!  I can't imagine someone going through the loss of someone they love without the knowledge that they are now in Heaven worshipping a great and glorious God!  Throughout this whole process - I have never gotten mad at God - although I know that He would understand.  I have questioned Him - definitely, but I realize that that, too is OK.  Even Jesus, on the cross, questioned God by asking, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"  Even in my questioning, I know that I may never have an answer that will satisfy my earthly heart and mind, but I DO know that the God I serve is bigger than any hurt or question I may have - and in that, I find peace.